Oh god...what a fucking year.

So, I'm back on DA. I had struggled with my computer, a breakup, loss of friendships, a new boyfriend, angry bickering and fighting with people not worth fighting with or trying to remain friends with....

It has been a long, long year or two since I have been on or posted anything on this site.

Sheesh.

Well, in between working and paying bills and wanting to smash my own head in with a mallet, I have gained a small, yet valuable, bit of inspiration to draw stuff again.

I had fallen out of drawing and sketching for music, and then gave up music a bit as well. Not so much gave it up as I just lost interest in it. I basically have had a permanent artist's block that will not go away.

It has a lot to do with the fact that I live with my boyfriend's parents, who happen to be the kind of people who want to get into your business, regardless of what your business is.

It's tiring, and you feel like you're constantly under attack...and when you're constantly under attack, you don't have the time or the effort to be sitting down in a quiet room and drawing something pretty. Everything I try to draw pisses me off. It doesn't come out right....it comes out distorted and ridiculous...like the way I feel right now.

I feel like once I get out of this house, I will have a little more inspiration, because I will feel more at home and my boyfriend will possibly pay a little more attention to me, and be more attentive to my artistic tendencies.

Well....................

So, I'm gonna take a nap, go somewhere quiet, and then try to draw something. And I am going to draw something cool, whether it takes me all night or not.

AHHH!

I hate being an artist sometimes. And I'm not too good of one, at that. Eh....se la vi.

-Vanessa Valium